Over the years I’ve become accustomed to being incredibly open about my mental health journey.
We all have mental health, but we don’t all have a mental illness (or illnesses). It’s important to note that some of us require assistance to enable us to better manage our wellbeing. And that’s okay!
However, I’ve refrained from speaking about a particular issue that affected my life for *thankfully* a short duration of time. This was purely as a result of the shame and embarrassment I felt surrounding the issue, but most definitely not because anybody made me feel this way. And certainly not because I view the illness as less “valid or significant”.
I was diagnosed with psychosis.
Psychosis is characterized as disruptions to a person’s thoughts and perceptions that make it difficult for them to recognize what is real and what isn’t
Psychosis is a mental symptom, not a mental disorder in itself, in which I’m yet to hear be spoken about adequately. I hear talk about depression, anxiety and eating disorders (areas in which affect me) yet it’s become apparent to me that certain disorders and illnesses are spoken about less, which I believe only adds to the shame people feel and makes people feel increasingly misunderstood.
I was referred to the Early Intervention Team within my local mental health service after expressing my personal struggles. I then received an assessment and was assigned to a councillor so that I could receive psychological therapy to assist me in combatting my demons. I also had regular psychiatrist appointments and thrived with the help of medication. Prior to popular beliefs, antidepressants can be wonderful and the shame we have for taking them ought to be diminished.
I was experiencing the early signs of psychosis, including: Unusual thoughts/beliefs, hearing things that others couldn’t and being unable to think clearly or pay attention.
I feel unprepared to raise awareness on the illness, but only because I’m not yet fully knowledgeable on it and would hate to disclose false information. The information I have is limited and has been gained from my personal experience, which is still a very sensitive issue that I prefer to bury in the past. To supplement this, I’ve chosen to speak up about it briefly to hopefully encourage others to do the same.
2020 is the decade to be more open about mental health. Let’s keep judgement in the past.
I’ve now recovered from psychosis. *Happy dance*
I kept this very much on the down low as I preferred to deal with things in my own way. I remain highly thankful that my experience lasted for only a short (yet traumatic) time.
I’m managing remarkably well. And 100% consider myself to be recovered, and no longer “in recovery” from this particular aspect of my life. The voices that once dominated my life have met their silence. I no longer have to deal with delusions. I’m now able to go outdoors without pressuring voices in my head encouraging me to hurt myself drastically, I’m now comfortable and safe in my own company and no longer feel as though I’ll be punished if I fail to give in to my demons. And I no longer feel threatened or uncomfortable in the presence of others or hold the belief that they intend to cause harm to me or another person.
I’m thriving. And will continue to do so.
If you’re struggling with psychosis, please reach out for support. And if you know of anybody who’s struggling, please encourage them to seek support too!
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Lots of love,